AI7 Interview with Brooke White: Big Girls Sometimes Do Cry

Thursday, I had the opportunity to participate in a media call with Brooke White. She had a lot to share about her experience on Idol. I wish her the best of luck with her future music career.

Brooke, one of the interesting things about the show is the differences in experience. There have been people on the show like Daughtry, and Bo Bice, and Taylor Hicks who have been performing full time for eight years. I was wondering, in your case, before you started the show, what was your experience as far as performing live in front of an audience?

B. White: Sure, I was at the same time as being a nanny, I was doing my best to try and do the singer/songwriter thing. I did do an independent album, performed around LA for a couple of years, and tried to get some of that experience under my belt, but that was pretty much it. It was just going out and doing it the hard way.

What kind of places were you doing it in? Were you sitting at a piano, or stool?

B. White: Yes, my very first gig was at Molly Malone’s, and I was on a little Rhodes piano, just the Rhodes and me. For about a year, I would do a couple of shows at The Roxy, and then I went to Arizona and did a few little hometown shows, but it was just mainly in clubs around LA.

I wanted to ask you about the journey, the difficulty of maneuvering the show and dealing with nerves, pressure, and stuff like that, because it seems like a few times, it really did get to you. How did you deal with that, and then push through with actually having to do the show every week?

B. White: I don’t know if you really have a choice. You get there, and I think there has just been something within me, when I thought I wasn’t able to keep going, and you totally feel like you’re sinking and it’s like, okay, swim. You have to, you realize you’re here; you have to make the best of it.

The pressure is so incredibly difficult, but you know what, I was here to do my absolute best, and be as true to myself as possible, and I can say in my heart, even with the challenges I faced, I think I was able to do that.

What did you think was your strongest performance in your personal opinion?

B. White: It was absolutely, Let It Be.

I think I’m right in thinking your husband pledged not to cut his hair until you were off the show. Is that correct?

B. White: Yes, it’s true.

When is he planning on cutting the hair, and are you going to do it?

B. White: Dave, when do plan on cutting your hair? He just said, “whenever you get around to it.” So, yes, I’ll be the one cutting it, but I’m just not sure, when that’s going to happen, we’ll have to pencil it in somewhere. It will probably have to be at three o’clock in the morning sometime.

Right, and when you were up on stage, obviously you were feeling quite emotional; it’s a difficult moment last night. What was going through your head?

B. White: Everything. I had anticipated it in a strange way, it was in my gut, and I thought I was strong, I really did, I felt so grateful and happy, and then “boom” it hit me, this is done this is over. The finality of that phase of the experience being over was sad, and then the fear of going back into the real world and what does the future hold, and also an excitement. It was just a lot of feelings that I was feeling. Yes, it was emotional, and I’d hoped so much that I could have been stronger, but I guess I’m just an emotional girl, I’m passionate, and that really came across on the stage, because I felt very vulnerable every time.

I know last night, Ryan Seacrest pointed out that on Tuesday night you had the lyrics to the song written on your arm.

B. White: I had the word palm on the palm of my hand.

Are there any other tips that you have used throughout the show for jogging your brain, or remembering the lyrics, or any little cheat sheets, or anything like that?

B. White: No, actually, I have not had any problems with the lyrics up until “You Must Love Me” and all of a sudden, it freaked me out, and I started thinking, oh my gosh, what if this happens again, it just kind of plays head games.

When I was singing the song in my rehearsal, I kind of felt as if palm tree was not sticking in my brain, so even just the practice of writing it down on my hand helped me remember it. I didn’t even look at it because it was on the underneath side of my hand, but whatever you can use.

We don’t use teleprompters, and I was playing an instrument, and singing on two songs, so it was a lot of things to remember in less than a week’s time.

Absolutely, and your husband, throughout the show, seemed supportive; he was always in the audience. Did you sing for him around the house, and does he really enjoy it, or is he like, okay, come on, Brooke, I’ve heard you sing too much, or anything like that?

B. White: Oh no, he likes to hear me sing, he’s pretty great. He’s just a very laid-back fellow with great perspective, and he’s 100% supportive. I’ve been really fortunate to find a guy who could hang with me through this.

I was wondering; were there any songs you couldn’t have cleared that you would have just loved to have performed on Idol?

B. White: Absolutely, I would have loved to sing a Fleetwood Mac song, or a James Taylor song.

“You’ve Got a Friend,” which I guess he did –

B. White: Well, Carole King wrote that song, so she owns the publishing.

What were you planning to sing for next week’s Hall of Fame theme?

B. White: Well, I hadn’t completely decided, but one that I was definitely thinking of singing was, “Help Me” by Joni Mitchell.

What are you planning on doing during the tour?

B. White: Well, I still haven’t decided on all my song choices, so I couldn’t even tell you, yet. We are doing about three songs apiece, so I’m really looking forward to it. I’m definitely going to be playing piano, and having a good time just connecting with the fans. It’s all about the music, and not all about the competition and the judging, just the good stuff.

It was kind of funny when Simon was saying he was going to tempt you over to the dark side. How have the last few weeks, few months, been along those lines?

B. White: Actually, he joked with me last night that he thought he might have brought me over to the dark side, and I just said, absolutely not. No, I’ve had a lot of support from people to remain the same person that I am, and I feel live I’ve been given the support, and I feel like I’ve had the strength to just remain that way, so it’s all good.

At least it’s sort of interesting, and of course, people around here are noting the fact that two of the last five on the show are both Mormon. Do you guys talk about that at all?

B. White: Well, you know, it’s just part of our lives, and it’s been a great part of my life, and it’s helped me make a lot of decisions, and it brought me a lot of peace actually through the competition, just my faith, it has been a great thing. It’s all good.

And heard reports when the cameras are off during the commercial breaks, particularly last week, it was very emotional, you were crying, really cried off camera. Is it a relief to be off the show?

B. White: Yes and no, I think after Tuesday night, I was ready, I was reenergized, my spirits were up, I wanted to keep going, and then I woke up Wednesday morning, and I knew, it was in my gut, Brooke, you’re going home; weird. Part of me wanted to keep going, and the other part of me was thinking this has been amazing, and it is kind of a relief.

Song selection and the pressures really increased with two songs, and then preparing for the finale, it’s just an incredible amount of pressure, so in that sense, it does feel kind of good to be done with that, but you know what, I was welcoming the challenge as well.

Did you have a certain amount of survivor’s guilt after last week, Carly Smithson going home, you having the problem with the lyrics? What was going through your head on Wednesday night last week?

B. White: When I survived, you’re saying? I don’t know if guilt is quite the right word for surviving. I was grateful. This show is very interesting; the voting process is very interesting. That’s why I always say, you never know what’s going to happen. I think you take what you can get, and I was grateful to people for seeing past my mistake.

I think beyond the mistake, I did my very best. I did my very best, I emotionally connected with the song, and I gave it everything I had, so for whatever reason that people felt motivated to vote, that’s beyond my control.

What was your thinking going into last week’s results show? This week you woke up and kind of sensed it, what was your sense last week?

B. White: Well, I’ve been packed for two weeks. There’s always a chance you could go home, but in these last couple weeks, it starts becoming more real. The contestants are so strong, and you just never know. Ever since Michael Johns went home, I think there was always this question in my mind of how long do I get. It could be any week, so you give your best performance, and then it’s out of your hands.

Did you not see yourself making it all the way to the final two?

B. White: I think I hoped for that, but at the same time, I tried to set goals, once I got the top 24, to the top 12, and once I got to the top 12, it was top 10, and once I hit the top 10, it was top 5. You just have to take it in increments because you can overwhelm yourself, and the expectations can sometimes bring a lot of disappointment.

Every time I was up on stage, I threw my heart into it, but I was open to whatever may be, because you only have so much control in this situation.

Are you going to be coming back to Arizona any time before the tour?

B. White: I’m planning on it, I’m hoping, but I don’t know when. They have me very busy, up to the finale, so it’s as if I’m off the show, but not really. There’s a lot to do, but I hope I get to, because I’m just dying to see my family. Huge support in Arizona, it was incredible.

What are you going to miss the most about the show? Is it the friendship with the contestants?

B. White: Oh, the friendship with the contestants, but we’re going on tour together, which is going to be a really great time. This experience, we’ve talked about it, sitting in rooms waiting for stuff to happen, and the experience of this is unlike anything else I don’t think I’ll ever have again.

I don’t really know how to put it into words, but it all has become this incredible roller coaster ride filled with a lot of emotions, and a lot of experiences that I don’t think I could ever have gotten in any other way.

Simon always says it’s difficult to maintain friendships because you are competing against each other. Do you think that’s true? Is there an undercurrent to the friendships?

B. White: No, but I can only speak for myself. I’m not very competitive by nature, and we’re all very different from one another. It’s not as if we had two similar voices, it’s just a matter of what people like.

One of the vocal coaches said, you know, Brooke, when I’m listening to the Carpenter’s, I’m not saying they’re so much better than Van Halen, it’s two different things, and if you’re constantly caught up in comparing the two, then you’re missing out on the joy of the music.

Yes, it’s a show, it’s a competition, but we literally got along better than I think – they always commented on how well they thought we did get along, I think we really related to each other. We were all going through a similar experience that no one could possibly understand.

You said that you struggled with confidence in the past. What did that mean for you before you went on Idol, and what impact being on Idol had on that problem?

B. White: Well, I was very open, and honest that struggle that I have, and to be honest again, it escalated at times during Idol, and at other times, I felt like I had a better handle on it. It was very much a roller coaster ride.

Tuesday, I think I felt kind of a resurge of confidence that I hadn’t felt in a long time, a lot of joy, gratitude for being in that place and I think that’s what gave me that boost, and it felt great.

Even though I went home, it was wonderful to leave on that note. I know that Simon said it was a nightmare or whatever, but personally, I think it was a great moment, and I’ve had such incredible support from fans, which also helps to reassure you.

Finding that inner confidence is something that has definitely been a struggle for me, but I’m learning, I’m growing, and Idol definitely helped me work on that.

We always say this show brings everything to the surface that might be an issue for you, and that one is certainly one of them, but I worked through it, and at times, had to work through it in a very public way.

That’s hard, it’s a very vulnerable position to be in, but it feels good to be honest, it feels good to work through it, and to face that challenge, and work through it.

Can you tell me, what is the problem? Do you feel that you’re going to get to something, and then you fail to do it, or that you’re not as good as other people or what is it?

B. White: Definitely I’ve had comparison issues my whole life. I didn’t start singing until I was a teenager, until I was about David Archuleta’s age, and I never thought I had a nice voice. It wasn’t pretty, it was this low, raspy thing, I didn’t have a big range, and I think I was very intimidated by other singers, especially on American Idol where it’s so focused on vocals. I didn’t know how well I would do, or if I would survive.

Oftentimes in rehearsal, I’d hear everybody sing and I’d think, wow, how did I get here, this is amazing, and these people are incredible. Sometimes it was easy to feel intimidated. I’m learning that everybody is different; there are several artists out there.

I spoke with Carly Simon this morning during an interview, and she just said some things that really meant a lot to me. It’s okay to be different and it’s important to accept that and make the most of it. There are people out there who appreciate it, so you just have to go with it.

I was wondering what, since you didn’t win, what would you like to happen, how do you see yourself, where would you like your career to go after this?

B. White: I want to be a singer/songwriter, I want to play – what I did on the show is as close to what I, without performing my own material, I would love to write, or at least co-write, and build an album around that organic sound, keep it real, keep it raw, and keep it fresh. I know it is 2008, so you have to make it current, but I definitely think that’s my avenue. I want to play the piano, I want to play the guitar, and I want to be very involved with the music, and connect with people on a very honest level.

Sort of like Carly Simon?

B. White: Yes, Carly Simon, Carole King, those are the people I grew up listening to.

One other thing, what did you take away from it? What did you learn from the Idol experience?

B. White: I always say that’s a loaded question. Many things I learned, but I think finding a balance between being true to yourself, and taking the advice and the wisdom from people who have great perspective and knowledge.


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